"I
will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the
anguish of my soul. You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my
feet in a spacious place." (Psalm 31:7-8 NIV)
Distress and anxiety can also reach into in
a Christian's life, but deep down, there is still a certainty that God takes
care of me and that he wants to recreate a living space and set my feet firmly
in an expansive place. A Christian woman in her fifties, who ended up in
depression wrote:
Silence - meaninglessness - hopelessness - old -
unwanted – cast-aside, - cannot find new work - cannot get an education. What
do I do? - Too late! Pull yourself together! – Too weak, Provisions of love -
not sufficient. The road back is closed. The road ahead is closed. Only the
present in worthlessness is available. I lack the strength to act and do not
see the need around me; I cannot do anything about it. I do not see others
doing anything; I do not force myself. It's raining. Headache. I'm out of work!
Nobody needs me. I would not be needed. An idea springs to life and shortly
afterwards, I know - it makes no sense! Want to go into something new, but am
bound by my own unwillingness, by the ambient unwillingness, of weakness, of
age and gender. The floral buds that were about to bloom never flowered - Same
here! - "But you heard my prayers
sound when I cried unto thee" (Psalm 31:23)
If you feel like this woman today, you
should know that it is not hopeless. If you read the entirety of Psalm 31 and
make the words your own. The Lord will set your feet in a spacious place. He
hears your prayer’s longing when you cry out to Him.
Prayer
Lord, thank you for knowing us all by name.
You know about our struggle and You share in the fight with us. Thank You for
allowing me to leave my tired mind and will in Your merciful hands right now.
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